Thursday, April 12, 2012

Experiment

Not sure how I feel about this...this blogging thing. There has been a time in my life when it was my lifeline. My connection with the outside world. One of the few things helping me cling to sanity. Then there came a time when it was too much. Too exposed. Too personal. Too many people that could see into my life. That is when I closed up shop. I pulled out of blogging, and cut way back on other social networking sites. It has been a year and a half since that time. I look back at the person I was then, and am amazed at the amount of pain I was in. I didn't realize how depressed I was. Even now thinking about it too much and I verge on a panic attack. Thankfully, I am not that person anymore, and my life is not in the same place. My kids are all toilet trained for one. All of my kids are in some form of school this year...3 of them are gone M-F from 6:40am to 3:15pm. I don't feel like I am drowning. I can do things with my children, and it doesn't feel like the bulk of my time is spent from keeping someone from accidentally killing themselves(cutting their sister's hair yes,*cough*cough*Annie*, but nothing life threatening) Anyway, it feels like time to try again. To reach out and connect. No promises! There is still a raw and tender part of my soul that flinches at the thought.... but here's to giving it a shot!

8 comments:

SHILLIG4FAMILY said...

Oh my dear, I'm in that "keeping everyone alive" phase right now.
I look forward to seeing what you have to say, what you think. I admire you, I think you're awesome. Thanks for sharing :)

AmyLyn said...

Kudos to your courage, Meg. Meanwhile, no matter what your emotional state, you always seem to inspire everyone around you, so this will probably bless us more than you. Loves!

Anne-Marie said...

Hey! I am looking forward to your posts/thoughts! I really wish we could have visited when I was down (for the less than 24 hours I was down for :)

I have lots of questions for you... :)

So, what have you read lately? You should come visit us in SA!!!!

Joel and Crystal said...

Yay!!!! I love talking to you/reading your blog and facebook posts...can't wait until we can do more together! Love you!!!!

Melanie said...

AmyLyn said it perfect - you inspire! And I miss you like crazy so I am grateful to see a little splice of your life, even if only virtual for now.

The Katy Daileys said...

There are only a few blogs that I truly LOVE to read and feel inspired by...yours is one of them. I have missed you, dear Meg! I agree with AmyLyn, too!

BRZZ Odom said...

YES!! glad you're back 8) Sometimes it's nice knowing I'm not the only one drowning..even if you're past that stage now 8)

Angie said...

I'd love it if you blogged again. I miss you and would jump at the chance to have a way to keep in touch. Love you Meg, and it's true - you are inspirational, beautiful, and so refreshingly down to earth.