Thursday, April 12, 2012
Not sure how I feel about this...this blogging thing. There has been a time in my life when it was my lifeline. My connection with the outside world. One of the few things helping me cling to sanity. Then there came a time when it was too much. Too exposed. Too personal. Too many people that could see into my life. That is when I closed up shop. I pulled out of blogging, and cut way back on other social networking sites. It has been a year and a half since that time. I look back at the person I was then, and am amazed at the amount of pain I was in. I didn't realize how depressed I was. Even now thinking about it too much and I verge on a panic attack. Thankfully, I am not that person anymore, and my life is not in the same place. My kids are all toilet trained for one. All of my kids are in some form of school this year...3 of them are gone M-F from 6:40am to 3:15pm. I don't feel like I am drowning. I can do things with my children, and it doesn't feel like the bulk of my time is spent from keeping someone from accidentally killing themselves(cutting their sister's hair yes,*cough*cough*Annie*, but nothing life threatening) Anyway, it feels like time to try again. To reach out and connect. No promises! There is still a raw and tender part of my soul that flinches at the thought.... but here's to giving it a shot!